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A Moment of Recogniton For Mother’s Day

In this time and on this planet, the collective focus is geared towards logic and compressed finite concepts which leads to a lack of understanding, and ultimately to fear. This creative, heart centered and freedom loving energy that is associated with the Feminine is not something that most people pay too much attention to in our Patriarchal minded world. In fact, in most circumstances the unfortunate goal is the suppression of these abstract and right brained qualities. We have placed far too much emphasis on living up to Masculine ideals, to the degree that it is not at all possible to maintain a balanced reality that honors all things and all people.

In our society, the mother and the role she plays is highly fragmented and deeply undervalued. So much so that females and mothers in most places have confusion over the roles that they are ‘supposed’ to play in their families, in their communities, for their children and most importantly for self, as they continually seek their worth from outside of themselves. As if there was actually a ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ way to be, to feel, to live and to love. We have forgotten our intuition and the inherent goodness that comes from living in the heart. This awareness and subsequent resolution is long past due.

The relationship with one’s mother is akin to the relationship one has to the Goddess. Personally, I place great importance on this. As many of you are aware I spend much of my time mending, nurturing and strengthening this bond and my connection with the Divine Feminine and through correspondence, the one with my own mother as well. One can easily say that this is the foundation and focus of my life. Knowing this, Mother’s Day is deeply significant to me since I am a daughter and I have daughters; since I am a mother and I have mothers; and since I am here pathworking on this planet, doing the Goddess’ work. The Goddess, the Earth and each of our ancestral mothers has provided all of us with nurturing, abundance and unconditional love even under the most adverse conditions no matter what humanity has done to thwart our perception throughout the eons of time, and whether we choose to maintain those illusions or not.

To my own mother: I honor and commend you for the work you have done and in how far you have come in restoring the collective wounds of the Feminine within yourself, and in everything you do. This path is not for the weary and is often an invisible journey no matter how meaningful the steps taken are. Your strength to turn against the crowd and march to the beat of your own drum, your courage to put yourself out there to try new things and find what feels most right for you, your persistence to break down old beliefs and long conditioned ideals within yourself, and your ongoing journey towards greater self love and self care is what I admire most about you. Doing this work has most certainly assisted me in my path, the path my daughters will walk, and whether anyone else in our family recognizes it or not – you have also assisted every single one of them just by being the change. I am grateful to be walking beside you. And I am proud to be your daughter in this life.

Happy Mother’s Day to you, mom, and to the rest of the blossoming goddess’ out there! I am sending my love and respect to each and every one of you.
Blessings,

~I.Goddess~

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A Sleeping Mystic Awakens Part III

For your convenience, here are links to: A Sleeping Mystic Awakens Part I and A Sleeping Mystic Awakens Part II.

I seemed to be well on my way after giving birth to Alecks, yet within only a few years I began to feel dissatisfied with my life. How did this happen? I thought I finally knew what “I” wanted. Who would have thought there were so many layers to me! I was now a mother with a school age daughter; life was full of demands and it seemed to be time to enter back into ‘the real world’ again. Into the workforce – more awake and more aware, but sadly just as stuck. I was macro managing, rather than micro managing. Definitely biting off more than I could chew. I was focused on changing the big things while attempting to ignore the smaller nuances that I have now grown to give so much credence to. Although I was speaking my truth when it really mattered to me in the macro, there were many times that I let things slide if they weren’t completely outrageous in the micro. Quite backwards by my own standards today. We must always keep in mind that it is the little things that count, since that will be the foundation for the bigger things to manifest.

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“How do your layers affect you?”

I succumbed to the outside pressure that I needed to fit into a particular role and do what everyone around me has always done. Entrenched in the making of yet another co-created spiral, I could feel myself shutting down. These seemingly small items would build up making me appear petty and irrational as my emotional reserves progressively overflowed. Consciously, I would look at the circumstances and see it was truly not that bad, yet I would feel so robbed and cheated more deeply within. This most definitely was not a logical process that I could think myself through, and I honestly did not make sense to myself. Not understanding this ominous feeling of displeasure lightly dusted with freshly rendezvoused tones of freedom, like a bull in a china shop I forged ahead with the plans I had made for my life. I felt a great panic come over me as once again my true self quickly became a distant memory…

In the autumn of 2009 I got my wake up call. The Universe provided me with a way out of my ongoing turmoil, and I got very sick. Dis-ease has a special way of providing us with new direction. Obviously this was the catalyst I needed. It all began with stomach ulcers – obviously I was not able to stomach my life. Then came cellulitis in my finger, and then bronchitis leading to pneumonia, coinciding with a slew of other phantom symptoms. It was as if my immune system just shut down. My glorious lungs and the grief they have loyally held for me have been my greatest ally in showing me this narrow opening out of my personal hell. Rather than seeking medical intervention, I decided to allow the Universe to decide what was best for me. I chose to allow myself to heal naturally for as long as I could, if I could – not knowing if I would actually make it through. And if anything could go wrong, it did. I had every reason to doubt what I was doing, yet I didn’t. These supposed setbacks actually allowed me to re-establish self trust, showing me that the box others were encouraging me to fit into was most definitely not the path I was meant to walk. And quite literally and metaphorically, I was at a dead end. Knowing this, I was able to revolutionize the path I was on.

I began to work on what I now understand to be one of my main lessons in this incarnation – LETTING GO. Whether I stayed on this planet or left this planet, I now understood that I needed to let go. And that I had a lot to let go of. It was certainly time to Lighten up! My options seemed a little bleak since I hadn’t left myself much leeway at this point. Let go of everything, or let go of everything. For the first time in my life I was left silent, and this allowed me to listen. Not so much to all of those voices around me, but I was still enough to really begin to listen to this powerful presence within. And I was humbled.

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“Life is too short to be distracted by the opinions of others.”

After 4 months of ongoing dis-ease and illness, I was quite weak. Not knowing what was wrong with me, I was able to remain fearlessly grateful for and very conscious of each and every moment I was still alive and breathing. I was learning to live in the moment, rather than for the future. The more I let go, the easier this was, and the healthier I became. In this short time I let go of my job, my relationship, my bills, control over my health or any other perceived worry I had previously entertained – and once again I focused on each second I could spend with my daughter. I left my health in God`s hands and allowed myself to be guided by Love, listening intently for any clues that could pull me deeper into Love. Not surprisingly most of these indicators came through Alecks, and through the feedback from my very own body. And again, I began to focus on Love in each and every moment. In this still weakened state I made a silent vow that I surrendered my life to God or whatever was out there that created me, and all of this. In that moment of testimony I vowed that I would do whatever was best for me to do, for the greatest good of All. Whatever I came here to do, I would do it. And only God could possibly Know what that was at this point. Obviously I did not know what I was doing having squandered my life essence to be in the condition I was in, barely reaching the age of 30. Again, something needed to change. I finally learned to surrender to this invisible force called the Universe. And through this, I was brought face to face with a brand new purpose.

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“You will be guided from within, at levels beyond your conscious awareness to navigate the depths of some of the experiential rites of passage. The keywords here are trust and surrender.”

ALCHEMY AND ANCESTRAL HEALING

The more I became still, the more I learned just how fluid this reality really was. If I could just find a way to alter my thought processes – especially the well engrained ancestral stories I was living out, I could actually see the nuances in the feedback system to show me how any given belief:

  1. Affected my world
  2. Affected others in my world
  3. Affected my own self,

by the natural reactions I observed. Through this healing process, I could see that after spending so much time alone, just how my thoughts and words would change based on the people that came around me. Imagine my surprise when I realized that I liked myself a lot more when my beloved family was not around me. A startling revelation and a remarkable feedback system that has served as the foundation for so much of my personal philosophy, even before I was aware of the Universal Law and Principles. This was most definitely the beginning of my personal Apocalypse – the revelation of my mystical awakening.

As I played with these new found awareness’, remarkably I began to understand that changing my perspective would also change the story I was telling, allowing my thoughts to morph and shift more readily as well. The test always involved the world out there challenging my own integrity or inner code, much like it did before. This was exceptionally true with regards to my family; those that have been in my life the longest; with those who knew the old me the best. To continue to fit in with the majority of their ideals and the roles I have played for them by aligning with their expectations, ultimately meant I would hold myself back from self love, self acceptance and overall wellness – not being in alignment with my true self.

Rather than remain stalemated with everyone in anger:

  1. For not allowing me to be the new me
  2. For not changing with me
  3. For not making it easier for me to change,

I embraced the challenge I was presented with, and turned it into an opportunity to become something greater than that which I previously was. I used Ho’oponopono and The Law of Forgiveness, and transformed this perceived limitation into something I could be grateful for. FINALLY. This freshly revised attitude allowed me to see that they were all providing me with my measure of growth. They were also teaching me to let go. As I let go, I rose out of the spiral that held me hostage for most of my life. The more they did not understand me, the healthier I became. And with each of these ego modifications came a plethora of options that were not available to me only moments before. Scattered within these options were the same temptations that formerly kept me trapped; using free will to ensure my lessons were being learned. I was truly beginning to see what is meant by a self learning Universe, if one is conscious enough to receive the gifts, rather than begrudge the circumstance that the lesson came through.

My world progressively opened up and quite frankly, I never did look back. Once you Know something, you Know it. There is no un-Knowing it. I was most definitely on a mission now and whatever that might be, I was determined to find it. Over the next year into 2010, I gained strength and healed my ailments through this inner pull that was aligned with the frequency of Love. Love has ultimately lead me through my genetically co-created self destruct program we have labelled as fate, and miraculously to the precise doorway that leads to my Destiny.

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“Love is my ~magic carpet ride~”

There were definitive moments when I actually saw darkness leave my spectrum of reality and I witnessed a lighter world emerge. I spent many paranoid months feeling like Jim Carrey in my own personal Truman Show. It was as if I was on the inside of an etch-a-sketch and someone or something was giving me that fresh start I was seeking. I saw that there most definitely was ‘GOD’ and that when I am aware of ‘HIM’, ‘HE’ is aware of ‘ME’. Through this ebb and flow we call life, getting to know GOD has allowed me to also know myself better. I know I was made in the image of this GOD, or in the image of this Universe; and that we have been given Universal Laws to easily navigate through the experience of these images and archetypes that we have co-created through programming and free will. I also Know that GOD is truly benevolent, and so am I. At any point we can reset the program and/or add more Love to it. When we Know better, we do better.

If you change the root level story and respond to the synchronicity that it brings you, you will seamlessly change your life. If you do this with the root intention of Love, the outcome will all-ways be benevolent. When you don’t like something, embrace it to make it that and more. A well tuned mystic Knows that alchemy is a tool that allows you the ability to change your story. From apathy to ONEder. Or from lead to gold.

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“You are an alchemist; make gold of that.”

William Shakespeare

Look out for the last installment – A Sleeping Mystic Awakens Part IV!

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A Sleeping Mystic Awakens Part II

For your convenience, here is a link to A Sleeping Mystic Awakens Part I.

IN DUALITY, MY STORY CONTINUES…

I became brilliant at hiding these differences and all of the nuances that I perceived, not letting anyone know that anything was out of the ordinary at all. Thankfully there were obvious reminders that I seeded for myself, making it apparent to me no matter how I pretended and tried to forget; rock bottom was not my native homeland. My instinctual Knowing was not a vibrational match to the world I fell into. My co-ordinates were obviously skewed as I continued to spiral.

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“A mystic with a veiled heart is like a sailor without a compass.”

Interdimensional Goddess

Feeling much like a mermaid out of water, I remembered another world not so far off and wondered how I could be here in this one, right now. By the time I was in double digits I was praying to whoever was out there that if I was indeed on the wrong planet, to come and retrieve me and to take me to my home. Yes, I was one of those kids that believed in ET’s, and I would often make emotional appeals that I had no idea if anyone was truly listening to. Considering the downward spiral I was stuck in and my fallen status with the Universe, I can only begin to imagine who was receiving these requests! This particular plea preceded a long string of peculiar and baffling health issues that escalated for 15 years until I became pregnant with my daughter. As I stopped taking all of my prescribed medications and refocused myself, my symptoms began to fade out of my life as well. Much of my life circumstances were anything but normal or average within the context of my experiences. And on top of it all I was a female and left handed, yet not artistically and outwardly creative as most imagined I would have been. Perhaps this was all left over karmic debris that nurtured my expanding fears of retribution for playing the role of the infamous other in countless more lifetimes. These well rutted channels of self protection were deeply embedded in my cell structure, seemingly from another time and from another place.

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“A man may be born, but in order to be born he must first die, and in order to die he must first awake.”

George Gurdjieff

DOWN IN THE DEPTHS OF ROCK BOTTOM

I finally came to a point where I realized that I had to crawl out of the safe confines within the rubble of my own crumbling facade. Through the ongoing emotional turbulence and negative self talk, hell froze over and I was completely numb. Being pregnant with my daughter 9 years ago was just the miracle I needed because in hiding myself from myself, I had forgotten how to love. Quite simply, being pregnant brought love back into my life. And that presence of life and love within was once again sparked and so I was able to re-establish a relationship with my own feelings, and with my own heart. Little did I know that in this process I was unwittingly giving birth to a brand new me also.

Within the first week of Alecksandria’s birth, I understood that this little girl was going to become…just like me!

Uh oh!

Something needed to change – fast – and the onus was on me to embrace it. One thing was for sure, my love for this child far outweighed any amount of medication, programming and conditioning I received. I still find it amazing that I was so willing to poison myself, but not at all willing to poison this child! There was hope for me after all! Because of Alecksandria, I was able to grasp a whole new perspective of life that I was not able to break through previously. She was the catalyst required to inspire me to hang up my well worn victim hat for good. Slowly, as I began to thaw, I consciously chipped away at this archetypal and ancestral static in my DNA. It has required plenty of ongoing TLC to have any success in understanding this abstract process, and to be able to move myself beyond what seemed like never ending cycles of self limitation. I knew I had to change me, or she too would follow in mommy’s well established footsteps and eventually allow herself to be poisoned as well. It was time to empower myself so that I could finally explore what I had been hiding from for so long. Deep within, I knew it was time to let go of my self restricting comfort zone, and all of those years I begrudgingly worked so hard to create this false self — and begin to build anew. This time, instead of hiding my individuality from the world, I fully embraced that THIS is my gift to share.

ANOTHER PARADOX UNVEILED

It is your own perspective (however limited or unlimited it is) that drives your personal experience through action. The gift and inherent curse of duality is: Difference. Focusing on any perceived difference is apt to fuel the formation of judgment. Alchemically speaking, the inherent gift easily transforms into a curse when through judgment we begin over-identifying with either polarity of any given experience for any length of time. Yet, how could we evolve if no one ever allowed their differences to be known? Astrologically speaking, it will be another 26 000 years before another version just like “ME” or just like “YOU” can manifest on this planet! Be YOU Now. The YOUniverse ask nothing more of you! The most harmonious way to collectively achieve this state of difference while simultaneously maintaining oneness, is by focusing on our own uniqueness.

EUREKA!

Most of us didn’t realize that these unauthorized ideas were possible to reach and maintain, much less that they actually existed in our so called modern era. Throughout my life, I never thought of myself as well grounded, however I was well conditioned and did my very best to keep from getting lost in my own ideas, visions and dreams, even though this is what came so naturally to me. I would have never classified myself in this way – as a mystic – even though everything that I have always loved has been tucked away in this elusive realm. Because these ideas were diminished by and clashed with our present reality, I attempted to turn my back on them. In essence this meant that I was turning my back on myself. I endeavored to conform myself to the consensus reality and live that average life that no one bats an eyelash at. However, it always became glaringly clear that this was most definitely NOT ME. It worked well for short stints of time until I ran out of room inside; until I could no longer hide my gross dissatisfaction as I lost touch with who I truly was more and more. Did I want this innocent baby I was admiring to suffer this same fate? Consequently this is the question that flipped my entire world upside down.

Oh yeah, down there at rock bottom, that empty version of me that I was living in the shadow of; that version of me that everyone else was so comfortable with me being; the one I wanted my little girl to be NOTHING like...

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“By being responsible for our own transformation and by taking committed action to live our lives creatively, joyfully and successfully we become the phoenix rising.”

Yes. That one. In order to find my true self, I had to turn my back on her. Her patterns, her cycles, her logic and her way of functioning in this world, while embracing the lessons that she brought to me for so long. That well groomed, man-made, peer pressured version of myself that lived up to the expectations of everyone but that of her own heart – she suffered extensively. I understood deeply that if not for this deeply wounded version of me, I would not be who I am today. In the deed of this socially rebellious act of becoming a phoenix – reinventing my own ego and changing my own story – I had to rise above considerable judgment and incriminating hearsay in order to maintain my own frequency, and therefore my own inherent integrity. As soon as I would explain myself or defend myself in any given situation, I would simultaneously put myself right back into that particular karmic sequence, keeping my own destiny continually at bay. I was making little if any headway in the cosmic scheme of my microcosmic experience and often felt I was going crazy as I began separating myself from this thoroughly programmed life. And for me, there was not a lot of joy to be harvested from that status quo ebb and flow of fear and survival, in the land of the walking dead. As Albert Einstein said, the definition of insanity is: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. I did plenty of this throughout my life, and it all needed to fall apart, to come back together.

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Look out for my next installment – A Sleeping Mystic Awakens Part III!

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A Sleeping Mystic Awakens Part I

WHAT IS A MYSTIC?

Mystics are sci­en­tists of their own inherent divinity. Those who consciously experience the subtleties of the world within, before it is pro­jected outward and lived through in this physical realm, without. Since a mystic realizes that there is much more to real­ity than what is captured by the phys­i­cal eyes and through the intel­lect alone, it allows one to be open to long buried ideas such as the Universal Laws and Principles. The entirety of life and of the uni­verse at large is regarded as a mys­tery to be unrav­eled, from the micro to the macro, its inherent value is at the root of the mystical experience. The mystic seeks Truth through contemplation and self surrender in order to attain unity within, and so with all things, while remaining aligned with one’s own unique integrity or inner code. To be a mystic is to walk the line, and to live a paradoxical life.

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“Are You A Mystic?”

A mystic tends to look at ordinary things as manifestations of a miraculous and infinite source of wisdom. How can this be true? When you become more consciously aware of Universal Laws and Principles, you will naturally become multidimensional. This means that you will experience every single thing from many vantages at once. How else can we speed up our evolution without outrageously over-extending our life expectancy? The more you focus your intention, attention and therefore your energy in this direction, the more wisdom you will reap. Do yourself a favor and Discover More! If you spend as little as 30 days authentically focusing yourself on this root knowledge, your life will freely reorganize itself. As you surrender to this path and allow your life to inevitably fall apart, you can empower yourself to see through real-eyes, and realize that this too has only been a frozen and illusory perspective. In fact, you can choose to have the exalting experience of: your life falling together! Witness the world from your higher self’s perspective! Imagine now that you are able to actually lift yourself up by seeing through the single eye of your higher self in the peak of your subjective experience.

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“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I will meet you there.”

Rumi

When you live in your authentic Truth, plugged into and in flow with the Universe, you have a certain Omni access to the BIG PICTURE. You become the eye of the storm. From this vantage, what is it that you really want to focus on?

UNVEILING THE SLEEPING MYSTIC

I realize only now at the tender age of 35, that I was indeed born a mystic. And to some degree or another, right now we have an entire planet of sleeping mystics. The only way another can ever tell you that you are a mystic is if they bring you through a series of awakenings or initiations designed to tune you into ‘non-local’ realms of existence. Otherwise, I don’t feel that anyone can truly know this to be true but you, yourself. And consequently no one can give you this title, but you. On some level you must recognize this for yourself first and set yourself outside the norm of the collective that you are immersed within, for another to be able to do the same to you, and for you. Silently within, the wheels are set into motion when you give another permission to come into your reality to bring you an opportunity for a co-creative experience together. According to Universal Law, As Within, So Without. When you are truly ready to consciously and intentionally live through this supernatural reality, someone from the outside world will come upon you through the Law of Attraction to honor your vibrational request for the experience that you have lined up with.

teacher“Teachers open the door but you must walk through it yourself.”

YET, WE HAVE BEEN TAUGHT TO WAIT FOR PERMISSION

As they say, when you are ready, the teacher will appear – for those with the eyes to see and the ears to hear. It is always up to you to walk through this door, or to walk away. This is the double edged sword of free will, with our ego squarely in the driver’s seat. And it seems that home to the ego is actually focused in the opposite direction to the home of the higher self! Now that was a novel idea for a collective experience of limitation! So depending on whether you are in your ego mind, or in your divine mind, dictates how you perceive each idea and experience of life in any given moment, giving way to the paradigm of good and bad that so many people are stuck in. There is no right or wrong answer, there is only the Right answer – for you. This exhibits an example of the funny little paradoxes that befall us as we make our way through the structures and systems that were set up to foster and support our collective development. Those safe and familiar paradigms that we have clung to actually house the belief systems that we feel stagnated and limited by, as we ready ourselves for the individuation of our authentic self in physical form.

As a young child, empathic and pretty awake amid a sleeping world, I sensed this differentiation between my true desires and what the world deemed acceptable, and I hid the things that did not meet other people’s standards. I always associated this with shame, which may have been true to me at the time. Yet, this is merely a child’s perspective. I now see a deeper reality where it was out of self perseverance that I felt any shame at all. From this perspective I have now, a God send really. If I was in an unaccepting reality, instinctively and quite naturally I would recoil myself from a psychically toxic and polluted world. I would naturally hide this ever so delicate and most real aspect of myself safely beneath the empty mask of acceptable societal virtue, while simultaneously shielding myself using a false veneer to become that which was not natural at all. I was caught in a vicious cycle, lacking any conscious reference for how to get out of it. I will refer to this experience as being caught in a downward spiral. Living my life this way left me not only perpetually tired and spiritually numb, but it also created the eventual manifestation of a personal deadness towards life, leading into yet greater expressions of emotional and bodily dis-ease. Surely, I believed that it would never be safe enough to be me as I gingerly spiraled down to my new home called rock bottom.

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“Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.”

J.K. Rowling

The next post in this series will be titled A SLEEPING MYSTIC AWAKENS PART II

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Human Malware? The Corrupt Coding In Your Genetics

Please read the first installment of this series here: There Is Malware In Mommy!

WHAT EXACTLY IS

Malware?

*I am not a computer expert, I am taking a very generalized idea and allowing myself to flow through what is presented to me, unencumbered*

…short for Malicious Software, it is software used to disrupt computer operation, gather sensitive information, or gain access to private computer systems. It can appear in the form of code, scripts, active content, and other software. ‘Malware’ is a general term used to refer to a variety of forms of hostile or intrusive software. http://www.internetsecurityzone.com/Glossary/Malware

BUT HOW DOES MALWARE RELATE TO HUMANS?

Since we now have an idea about the logistics behind Malware and how it affects our computers, we can also relate ourselves to these logistics relative to computers through The Principle of Correspondence. To the sleeping Mystic I know it appears that I am comparing apples and oranges. Yet I will say that these manifestations that appear to be different on the outside, are actually from the same core blueprint. Maybe without having such an emotional attachment to our computers as we do to our own physical bodies, we have created a replica of ourselves to study. In a holographic reality, this is entirely probable.

Our bodies and the programs we run are quite similar to the idea of computers. And we have an affect on our computers since we feed them with our energy every single day! I would go so far to say that computers were built upon human technology. And so if Malware exists in computers, I can only surmise that Malware exists in us as well. Only in recognizing this parallel are we able to do anything about it. Otherwise we unconsciously replicate our own patterns, for better or worse.

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“Subconsciously, could humans have created computers to investigate their own defects and evolutionary malfunctions?”

Through “Windows” we have been able to explore so much corruption – virus’, worms, trojans and other Malware, along with the effect it has on us personally and collectively. Did Bill Gates create “Windows” to show us the corruption in our own souls, and to give us a chance to get to know our shadow without being too emotionally attached to what we found? Through “Apple” we have had a much more stable system Steve Jobs will have contributed to the stability of our future through his technology and superior coding. I truly wonder which collective he was channeling, in the cosmic scheme of things. Perhaps we should go back to basics and remember these little catch phrases like: an apple a day keeps the doctor away. It seems that the vibration of “Apple” does not play in the same field as the virus. Just sayin’!

Today I am sitting in front of my laptop looking through a few links and a video catches my eye and eventually pulls me in. I began listening to it while I checked my email. A few minutes later, I hear something that shifted me. I go back and listen to it again. Yes! This is what I was waiting for since writing my last article There Is Malware In Mommy! Confirmation. (At the end of this article I will post a link to this particular video. It is a long video, so I am extracting the small part that struck me so deeply.)
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“Come, let us go down and confuse their language so they will not understand each other.”

Genesis 11:7

Does this bible quote support the theory that humanity was infected with bad coding or Malware, meant to corrupt each other? Is our use of slang and the breakdown in communication a seed that was planted in humanity as far back as Babylon? Is our collective lack of effective communication a root level program that was implanted so long ago?
I Know that we are a micro of the macro. I Know that how I parent came from a whole lineage of parents. I also Know that this lineage of parents mirror how our cosmic parents have parented us, and so on. Perhaps there are slight differences along the way, but the root program will be the same unless you consciously make change through greater awareness and inspired action. Otherwise, we will unconsciously repeat what has been done to us, and perpetuate this test of entrapment. A form of Human Malware corruption may manifest as the inability to accept guidance from our children, as pointed out in the first installment of this “Malware” series. Another form of Malware may mutate in a way that does not allow a parent and child to communicate harmoniously, never quite seeing eye to eye. Over time, as both the parent and child Polarize to opposite spectrums of experience, could this very well contribute to the inner workings of the infamous generation gap we are all familiar with? And once the polarities are well established, what does that mean for the next generation? Or the one after that? I would think that it would open to a wider gamut of experience, allowing a greater and more balanced Truth to be lived, by our future ancestors.

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“Are You Seeing Eye To Eye?”

Generation Gap

a lack of communication between one generation and another, especially between young people and their parents, brought about by differences of tastes, values, outlook, etc.

Microcosmically, we will find this corruption in the actual structure of our very own DNA. Macrocosmically, our awareness resides within the sun and stars. Conceivably this may be our collective moment in Time where we have fallen from Grace; when we began giving our energy to words and ideas devoid of true depth and meaning; the moment we were maneuvered to choose and experience something other than a heart based reality for ourselves. Is this the moment that we became more focused on the outside clamor, rather than on our Divine status as intermediaries between Heaven and Earth? The onus is now on us to become the anti virus and to clean up our own coding when we notice our own discrepancies. If humans are able to do this through air tight ego and fear programming, just imagine what computers are capable of!

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There Is Malware In Mommy!

WHERE DO THESE CRAZY IDEAS COME FROM?

Let me begin with a little story, only it begins in the Here and Now rather than Once Upon a Time…

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BEST SNOW DAY EVER
Tuesday January 7, 2014
Whenever I require a boost in my creativity or a shift in my focus, my very own Earth Angel aka Alecksandria is impulsed to serve as my muse. If I am willing to surrender my ego and allow myself to be led by my child, I am always left with some kind of life altering awareness. In this particular circumstance Alecks came to me asking if she could play a free video game online. She padded her request by telling me that it was called “Legend of Angels”, knowing I would resonate with the theme. I felt through her request and something felt off to me. I told her I didn’t really think it was great and it most likely had a virus attached to it. She was clearly disappointed. I went to check it out for myself as I allowed myself to sit with her suggestion a bit longer, and it struck me that it was not necessarily a virus but that it perhaps had Malware of some sort. Now piqued by this new information, Alecks looked at me with her big eyes and innocently asked me, “Mommy, what is Malware?” In this moment, I was able to simplify the idea of Malware down to the idea of computer language. I explained how some programs speak a bit of slang, and maybe have a few ‘bad words’ that it would teach her computer as it communicated with the program. It would likely not be detected until her computer tried to speak to a program that had a cleaner language, and then it may cause lagging or looping to occur as they are not able to connect messages as clearly as they were before Malware was introduced to the system. Mind boggling concepts for an 8 year old no doubt. She was letting this new information sink in, and so was I. Suddenly, I felt my heart begin to glow warmly, and I was inspired to expand further. Now comes the moment for my lesson to be revealed!
For those of you who do not know me personally, I am a freedom loving kind of lady! And very into open and honest self expression. Authenticity is the name of my game! However, in this moment the most Truthful thing I knew I had to do, was to use myself as a perfect example of: Malware!
There have been times that just by the process of association, like anyone else, I have picked up some language that is not necessarily impeccable. I now realize that this has created a huge distortion in my vibration. It may even have been enough to keep me from reaching the heights of my full positive potential. I readily admit that I have also impacted others in perpetuating improper and less than impeccable use of language. Using any kind of slang is an interesting concept. It is alluring mostly because not everyone partakes, and it allows us to feel passionate in new ways. We must remember that here in duality, with good also comes bad. And using lower frequency words definitely gives duality an unspoken stronghold over your life. Giving into this intrigue created a distortion in the expression of my own Truth and this did not allow me to retain the ability to communicate as clearly, or as effectively. It is the higher frequencies we choose to maintain in between the actions we take that allows us to experience more flow and synchronicity in our lives.
As I confessed to my little one that mommy has surely contributed to corrupting her with a form of Malware, and that this was going to change ~ her stance relaxed and in that moment she understood all that I was inspired to convey to her. The Holy Instant. Satisfied with our conversation and releasing all resistance to not getting what she initially wanted, she asked me to help her get ready to go outside and play in the snow. THE END.
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A WITNESS TO MY OWN HEALING PROCESS
I would consider this conversation with Alecks to be somewhat out of the ordinary. I Know her energy and being born on the 11th day of the month, she came to this planet to Serve as a gateway for illumination. Adding to the day of her entry, she was given a name that naturally vibrates to the libraries of Alexandria, Egypt. Her essence oozes with this wisdom, yet a child’s delicate ego is in between. Needless to say, when these moments arise – I am keen to listen. And this is always my clue to really tune in and pay attention. In my own healing processes that I have developed, I Know that when I allow myself to be aware of my own shadow and actually embrace it rather than hide myself from myself, I take a giant leap in the process of my evolution. Through my understanding of Universal Law, I Know that as I remove my own resistance my world will shift to provide me with clues. What was hidden will begin to appear. The onus is on me to notice. When I am aware, I can not only Know better, but I am also able to do better ~ if I am willing to accept ALL of myself! In creating my foundation based on Universal Law, Divine Timing is free to flow in the same stream with man made time, allowing the magic of synchronicity to readily blossom before my very eyes. In this instance, I have consciously become the cause of an uplifted effect that is now activated to reveal itself to me. (Read more about Causation and how to personally develop it in your life!) As I excitedly embrace this new opportunity to witness and co-create my own growth, I immerse myself in a bit of research to open more pathways of awareness based on what I have just been presented with.
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EM~Power~ME

People are just people. They do what they do. You know a person by their Nature or by their vibration (Principle of Vibration), and therefore by their resonance to you. The only reason anyone can ever hurt you is because on some level you gave them the power to do so. Be self responsible, and really go within to find out where you gave your power away and most importantly, ask yourself why you chose this experience. The answers that come to you may surprise you. Opening this door just may allow you to wake up with the clarity you are seeking to make the changes you need to create. Awareness Empowers.

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Your ‘future self’ will thank you for finding the power to make this jump!

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Messiah Seeds and Soul Contracts

ARE YOU THE MESSIAH SEEDS FOR YOUR FAMILY?

(If you are reading this – YOU ARE!)

Through this series of video, I am able to understand why 4 years ago the most dominant recurring idea I had was: “Ancestral Healing“. To be honest, I wasn’t even sure what it meant, it was just an idea I somehow ‘Knew’. Our Soul contracts with our lineages must be completed in order to fulfill our Soul’s mission, which is our main reason for being here on this planet right now. And re-member: Our Ancestral ties ground us to the Earth plane of existence.

“The world is not an illusion if you are held back by time and space. It’s only an illusion when you decode it and overcome it.”

Makalesi

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Learn to consciously allow your little ego deaths and stop your own personal suffering. You will transcend your own pain, and focus on what you actually came here to do! If you have had a very stressful and challenging life – against all odds so to speak, this is a sure sign that shows you came here to live through the unlikely odds of waking up inside The Matrix. Do you have advanced DNA? Did you come here to make this evolutionary leap?

Would you like to know more about Messiah Seeds? It’s as esoteric as it gets! Thanks again Makalesi!

“Level 1 – Level 3 Messiah Seeds are very powerful and have a lot of primordial energy in them. And notice that if they make their lives hard, they can get more energy out of it. So, therefore Messiah Seeds always have a very stressful, isolated, depressed and negative life – bad things always happen to them, and what they need to realize is that they are systematically placed…”

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The k(NO)wing of Parenting

THE STATEMENT THAT STRUCK A CHORD:

“…because the inability to say “No”—the inability to set personal boundaries—is one of the most common, insidious causes of human suffering.”

Subject matter for this post was extracted and quoted from this article: The Reason Every Kid Should Talk Back To Their Parents

If we build a world from the perspective of Love as Unity Conscious Beings, boundaries will be obsolete. Until this manifests more fully in our planets’ collective consciousness, I deeply resonate with the linked article.

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“Do children need to learn to set boundaries assertively rather than aggressively? Yes. Do they need to learn the art of compromise? Definitely. Do they need to learn to wisely choose moments of submission? Absolutely.

But all of that learning begins with a ‘No’.”

Saying NO is the first step to Self empowerment and to finding a new way to experience life, when the old one does not feel good any longer. This discontinues the perpetuation of old dogmas and belief systems that caused your separation in the first place. After you assert your NO, you have a clean slate to build on. The next step is discovering the new and improved commonality to create the win/win between ‘this’, and ‘that’.

Personally, I feel that in her 8th year, my daughter and I are finding more and more common ground in our foundation, and surely, achieving this means that she will also replicate this pattern in her own subjective world. Of course there is some resistance in moments, this is the only way for her to safely learn about and assert her power in constructive ways. Personally, I feel my purpose as her guide in this world is to teach her about the Universal Laws in action – by maintaining my integrity and by being a living example to her, by allowing her to experience the ebb and flow of life, and by sharing information with her openly and authentically ~ but always through the intention of Love.

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When practicing the Law of Self you will understand that saying YES to Self and remaining in one’s own integrity (which is the most important practice) – at times involves saying NO to others. This is healthy non-conformity, and something we should always strive for and honor. When we honor it in Self, we will quite naturally honor it in others as well – mostly importantly, in our children. In saying NO and causing a temporary separation to find a greater alignment within Self, we must acknowledge that the responsibility is on us to find a more natural flow in our lives and with others, and to live this example for our children to model themselves after. Teach by example. We will most definitely foster a society of Self responsible beings; beings who have the ability to respond to Self.

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Mother Dearest!

This resonates to the core of me. I wish I had the words to explain this so well myself:

“…she always said that I was the problem and that I did this to her ~ that I tore HER down;

“Darlene, you are so critical.”

“Darlene, I can never do anything right in your eyes, I am always wrong”.

“Darlene, there is no pleasing you.”

And overtime I believed that my words, actions and behavior (although I could not figure out what I was doing that was so offending) had eaten away at her self-confidence and harmed her sense of self-worth and undermined any good feelings that she ever had about herself and her accomplishments. I believed everything she said about me. I believed that I was the critical one and that I was the one doing all the damage.

This is the brainwashing; this is what happened that caused me to try harder with her and to try so hard to ‘understand her.’ I tried to reassure her, to soothe her and to be the daughter she always wanted.

And when I started to look at the way SHE treated me in this profoundly dysfunctional mother daughter relationship we had, I became aware that now I was saying some of the same critical type things about her too.  When I started to look at the truth about how toxic our mother daughter relationship was, I felt guilty because I believed that I was being critical of my mother, and I had tried so hard all my life to prove her wrong about me! In the first couple years of my healing process I kept saying stuff like “well in all fairness to my mother, I was not the perfect daughter because of…. And I would list my faults. Just like I was trained to do; I was trained to look at me, always to look at me and my faults and to take the blame. Looking at my faults is not such a bad thing, but the lack of mutuality in our relationship is a ridiculous thing. This started when I was a kid and I had been convinced mostly through the actions and results of those actions at the hands of the adults in my life, that I was the failure and that if I could be different, THEN I would be loved. There was no accountability on the part of the adults!

Today I refer to that thought process as “the spin”. I would spin around and around in my mind about why my mother was justified in her criticisms and judgments of ME which I somehow believed nullified my judgments of her. I could never validate that something really was wrong with the way she treated me, because I was so convinced that I was at least as much of a problem for her as she was for me. I didn’t see how she was “the parent”, or how she expected me to be more responsible for the success of our relationship than she was. I didn’t look at HOW I learned to have a relationship in the first place. I didn’t realize that my self-esteem was never put in place because my parents didn’t put it in place. I didn’t consider for one minute that the truth was that it had been up to them to give me a healthy emotional foundation in the first place.  I had learned to LOOK at myself in a critical way and to never look at anyone else in a critical way. There is something really warped about that.”

And this is one hits home as well:

“…statements like “Oh you think you are so perfect” or “sorry I’m not perfect” are actually deflections meant to make me believe that the problem was my “unreasonable expectations” of her; I picture my mother as wearing wonder woman type shiny wrist cuffs to deflect the statements I made to her, BACK on to me. She didn’t hear me, she had no intention of listening to me, she just found a way to put the responsibility of our relationship back on me.”

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As long as there is dysfunction that is denied to heal within the relationship (equally on BOTH parts) the cycle will continue because that is all they know. The person who is not willing to heal their own role in the drama is so solid in their old script that they don’t allow for the other to heal their part in the story, and then continue to cry victim to what they created and continue to perpetuate. Vicious cycle. Someone wise once told me, the fish stinks from the head..!

This post was inspired by – Toxic Mother Daughter Relationships when Mom says You are the Problem.

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