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A Letter To Our Unborn Child

I just wanted to take this opportunity to send out a quick note to our little angel waiting on the wings of creation to come into our life.

20140605_213911THE PARADOX OF LIFE AND DEATH

I know right now you are somewhere out there, working very hard to release yourself from the bonds and attachments that keep you grounded to the life you have just lived through. I also know that right now you are doing everything possible to understand all the lessons and idiosyncrasies that have found their way into your consciousness in order to grow and move beyond them in preparation for the life you are about to come into. You have already brought so many welcome changes into our world – and some of them were definitely long overdue. I can only hope that we are also inspiring the same for you.

As we all sit here in anticipation of what you are becoming in our lives, you also have a family that loves and mourns the loss of what you have been to them. Before moving forward, from the depths of my heart and soul, I would like to extend my love and gratitude to all of them for allowing you a loving and smooth transition from one reality to another; from their world, to ours.

To this most precious soul that is entering into our lives under the guise of daughter, sister, granddaughter, niece, loved one and friend, I assure you and those that you are presently attached to, that we will do everything in our power to honor and love you in the best ways we know how.

WELCOME TO OUR FAMILY

beachdayaugust5croppedBelieve it or not, your daddy even had a prophetic dream before we had any clue at all that we were actually having a baby! Well, sort of, we didn’t realize it at the time…but let me explain it a bit more. Approximately a week after I was actually pregnant neither of us consciously yet knew it, yet your daddy told me about a dream he had, and in it he said that I looked ‘different’. Of course I pursued understanding exactly what he meant by ‘different’, and he attempted to delicately explain what he saw. He told me that I didn’t look like ‘me’ anymore. I was quite confused, and he continued on saying that I was ‘me’, but I definitely didn’t have my girlish figure any longer. I laughed, but I will admit that I was a little alarmed and thought it might be time to do a little fasting in case I was hanging onto any excess weight that I didn’t need any longer. And so I attempted to fast like I had so many times before — but it didn’t work. I kept explaining to your dad as I tried to understand it myself, that something in my body was not allowing me to go without food, and that I actually needed to eat more than I was used to eating. I was completely perplexed and yet I honored myself and did what I felt was right for me in that moment – and so I ate! Again, neither of us knowing at all that this dream was going to hold so much meaning and so much truth as we unknowingly embarked upon this pregnancy and all the bodily changes that naturally came with it. At this time you were most definitely conceived and in my womb. And after this seed point and a few long weeks of ‘morning sickness’ (all day sickness!), the cravings began! However, this is another story, for another time….

‘LAMBZEY’ IS BORN!

In many ways you were conceived in our consciousness long before it actually happened in this physical reality. In fact, it was well over a year ago when daddy and I did a simple ceremony together to signify our love and commitment to each other. That very day we saw this sweet little stuffed lamb and decided to take it home to have something physical to anchor us to this truth that we shared. We named it ‘LambZey’. We felt LambZey was a perfect name to represent this merger – “Lamb” of course for your father’s lineage, and “Zey” to represent my side of the lineage (Zeytinoglu) – in harmony with each other. I feel that since that very moment we have unconsciously been holding space for you to enter into our lives. Throughout this pregnancy we have nicknamed you ‘LambZey’ to everyone, yet even before any doctors would confirm that you were in fact a girl – we both already knew it, and we both received confirmation from you exactly what your name would be. We knew this beyond a shadow of a doubt within three days of knowing that I was indeed pregnant. We have safely held your name within our hearts and have only told our closest family members…but I have to confess, I can’t wait to announce you to the rest of the world!

lambzeybelly21croppedHere is the little lamb that has been holding space for you in our world, and your dad’s creative expression of LambZey!

Sweet soul, I ab-soul-utely love you and I hold deeply sacred the gift that has been given to us as you have presented yourself into our lives. Little angel from heaven ~ I cannot wait to hold you in my arms and to give you wings to once again fly. As we eagerly anticipate the beginning of our new journey altogether, know that love will all-ways be the foundation for the life we will share.

Deeply in love and in gratitude,

Mommy

 

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